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zengulo gulo searches for harmony
11/16/97 From Snowy Couchtown / for my Father It is possible that the universe is as cosmology describes - that entropic forces will in some countless billion years disintegrate all that we "know", leaving only silent, timeless, emptiness - It too is possible that there is nothing of which we can not "know" - that our imagination is truly limitless - that there is no other dimension of organization beyond our ability to comprehend - What I find troubling is that these two statements both use the word "know" and I can not say at all what that "means" - We are exactly alike : We both hunger to "know" the nature of the universe - you search for it in the night sky at the greatest distances that can be described - I, here in my quiet snowy Couchtown in the tiny details of the day - they are the yin and yang - a cosmic pas de deux - two dancers - one ballet-
early 1998 happiness ever since we were one celled animals our most powerful controlling obsessive instinct has been to survive to reproduce / to propagate our DNA forward in time / safe in our peptide slipstream is an urgent set of instructions that dominate our every waking activity / they compel us to burn our lives seeking a vaporous commodity / a euphoric alteration of consciousness we refer to as happiness / like the proverbial carrot held just out of our reach we are driven towards realizing an image of the way it will feel finally once and for all to be happy / we hunger for wealth / for power / accomplishment / icons for increased survival probability / icons for happiness / for adrenaline / for endorphins / few stop to ask what the origin of our driven hunger may be / the nature of happiness is only biochemical? / no more than that? / nothing more here? / but wait / how has this come to be? / how did it happen that the first instructions written into the primitive proteins we came from were to survive to reproduce our DNA by seeking the euphoria of happiness? / is this likely?? / in whose hand were the chemical codes of ecstasy written ???
early 1998 koan MASTER: where is the repository of the past? STUDENT: it is our memory / it is in our mind MASTER: where is the repository of the future? STUDENT: it is in our imagination / it too is in our mind MASTER: the pond
early 1998 koan just peel the potatoes
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